Battling with my mind

I'm incredibly Type A. I like to say I'm a planner, which is true. I plan just about everything. Does it always turn out right? No, but I'm usually ok with that. I just need to plan things ahead of time to feel prepared. If there's one thing on this planet I looooooooooathe is being unprepared. This translates to my keto lifestyle right now because I'm budgeting my food. It's probably a good idea for me to plan, at least in these initial stages, because honestly if I have to stop and think about things I'm likely to say, "Eff it," and eat some stuff I will regret later.

The first few weeks this system has worked really well, and it is continuing to do so. However, I'm starting to hit a point where I'm really not hungry. The problem is that I know in my head that I have permitted myself to have x amount of food today and, by Jove, my brain is determined I NEED to eat that or else I am somehow depriving or harming myself.

So I'm sitting here this afternoon, post-school, doing some organizing of our supplies, and I think to myself, I have this stuff budgeted in for today and I need to eat it!

I go to the kitchen, stand there a minute, and realize I'm not hungry. I don't need to eat right now, and dinner is in about an hour so I will be fine. NOOOOOO!!!! says my brain. You must eeeeeeat. 

Here is where I start trying to rationalize exactly WHY I think I need to eat, even though I'm not hungry. I've barely broken a thousand calories today, and that includes my planned dinner. Wait, I haven't had enough protein. What if I damage my muscles by not getting that sixty-some-odd grams? If I don't eat enough today am I going to sabotage tomorrow out of starvation (an absurd notion given my level of fatness). Etc, and so on.

This is the battlefield, folks.

My brain says EAT!!!!

My body says Not so much.

Right now I am making the conscious decision to say, "Screw the macros. I'm not hungry. I am NOT going to eat."

Good try mind. You lose today.